Cry

sorry i have not been blogging for a while, i been addicted to taiwanese series .. shall blog about that next time ..

wo hen lei le.. wo mei you yan lei le .. hen lei .. hen lei ..

[ i'm very tired .. i have no more tears .. very tired .. very tired]

sometimes i question where do i stand in other's life? if i'm not there, will their life remain the same ?

i'm really tired of trusting people.. do you know how hard it is to repair a heart?

when you're 11 and your best friend dumped you, you call your dad while he's at the office and cry about it

when you're 14 and your friends leave you behind, you find joy in a rekindled friendship

when you're 16 and your friend betrayed you with your online bf , you forgive her

when you're 18 and your friends go separate ways with you, you accept and walk alone

but when you're 20 and your friends just bite you in your ass again.. how much strength and faith have you got for new friends?


all my life, i have been crying ..

i cried when i was in kindergarten, when i had to leave home

i cried when i had to leave elementary school

i cried when my friend got angry with me

i cried when me and her fight

i cried when my online best friend thought he had AIDS

i cried when i graduated high school

i cried when i sleep alone at night in NS camp

i cried when i had to leave NS camp permanently

i cried when i see something that reminded me of NS

i cried when my first love walked out my life

i cried when my parents disappoint me

i cried when my sister was willing to hurt me .. in the most hurtful way

but lately i din cry ..

i din cry when i was so close to wu chun but i din get to see him

i din cry when i failed

because thru the tears of the past 20 years, these are things that i can pick myself up and dust myself properly ..

but i broke open again .. tonight .. wo hen lei.. very tired

and you will never know, because tomorrow i will wake up with a smile like nothing happen..

i won't tell about the wound in my heart

i won't tell about the scars left

because i run out of tears

.. or so i believe

listening to :- yuan you hui ( garden festival ) - jay chou