Goodbye dear baby

She went away ..

My dear bu zhe tao ran away de ..

I always thought she was a very clever cat but the other day I saw her trying to poo in the garden and in order to prevent the process, I splash a little water on her. She ran out and never returned for an hour.

After that, she came back and I was happy all over again. It was then we thought maybe we could train her by not letting her in the house, then maybe we can keep her outside as a pet.

First of all, we thought of watering her when she tried to come in the house so that she would learn that this is a bad behaviour. The sister did it twice and then she disappeared. Maybe she really hate this method.

Last heard, someone took her away and place her somewhere else. I kinda miss her and her constant meowing at my door. Her box, water and string are still here because I kept hoping she might return soon.

She is such an intelligent cat, yesterday we placed her at the back alley of the house and within seconds, she had ran back to the front.

If she's being kept as a pet now, I hope she's happy. I hope she will enjoy her life. I just don't want her to be cold, hungry and bullied by other cats or anyone.

MSN Me

It's been a while since I switched to my new msn and I'm lovin it.

I have the dearest on my list

My siblings :-

* Kat
* Ah-B
* K. Fen
* K.S
* The sister
* Leen
* The brother
* Fruit
* Eve
* Dei

The invinsible :-

* Kay Kay
* Aditya
* Kevin
* Anonymous
* Kenny / Rashid
* Kien
* Kenny

Jay-ism :-

* Pam
* Don
* Joc
* Juju
* Ferre
* Eddy
* Xiao Mei
* Mindy
* Kayvern
* Dionne
* Jenn Jie
* Jerome
* Julie
* Kay
* Linda
* Ferre
* Vvens
* Shyan

Camp mates

* Sherrie
* Sook Hui
* Abby
* Feng Q
* Iscz
* Shal
* Matt

Since 1999

* Shiaw Lee
* Shahida
* Y. Jenn
* Clara
* Pek San
* Ben B
* Crys
* Maws

Sisters and brothers of faith

* Poh Wei
* Sim Ai
* Sze Earn
* Janet

Fellow strandees

* Kelvin
* Tammy
* Spax
* Esther
* Josh
* Karen
* Wendy
* Wasila

MMU-ians

* Mia
* Raymond
* Eric
* YunYi
* Alyaa
* Jo

This will be under my links

Sigh, I am bored to do this. The net is slow like slower than snail

Big bank mail post

Two months (i think) ago, me and cousin Eve went Mid Valleying and bought something for our cousin Kat. We were finding for affordable things because we wanted to buy 3 at once, meaning one for each of us. Just a little something that the three of us own. We wanted to buy mushrooms but it was kinda pricey for 3.

so we got this instead ..


in case you can't identify what objects are those, they are piggy bank. well, more like mail box bank. We bought in three assorted colours.

cousin kat's bank mail .. we then wrote continuous note on paper and fold them in heart shapes to deposit inside her bank. did you get our message? =)


and we wrapped it with newspaper so that it would look unsuspecting.


lotsa love,

My gift for my anniversary XD

today is malaysia's 51st independence day . also marks a year since i last performed in stadium merdeka a year ago.

oh well, to "celebrate" my own anniversary, i decided to post the first piece of shit i wrote back when i was 12 . here goes.

wait, remember i was 12 back then ok ?



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Title :- Just because of love

"I don't like you, you ugly bastard" Laura screamed to Benges who tried to be her couple
"Please Laura I beg you" begged Benges
"If a love is being force, its not a happy ending" Laura replied and turned away
"And stop following me" she added
That's it! Why can't she understand that I love her? Benges thought as he watch Laura walked away

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LAURA

I hate that boy. He only been here for 2 weeks. Who I mean is Aaron the new boy. Calling me names such as Blondy, Pit Nose and so on. One day I accidentally bumped into him.
"Sorry" I said not realizing who I bump into
"Hey! Blondy. Watch where you're going" he said to me with a smile
It's a puzzled he could have a smile on me

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AARON

I like that Laura girl (actually). But I don't dare to tell her. O.K. I'm a boy. I'm brave. I must tell her. I been calling her names to keep me from blushing. I'll tell her on Tuesday even if she don't want to hear it

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LAURA

I have this feeling 2wards this Aaron (suddenly). He's so cute, so handsome and cool. I tried to avoided this feeling but I can't. I have to tell him even if he dislike me. I'll burst if I don't tell him. I'll tell him on Tuesday.

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After school Laura went to Aaron's locker
"Aaron, I've -"
"Laura, do -"
Both of them says together
"You first" Laura offered
"Laura, do you know I suddenly have a feeling 2wards you? Maybe or even if you don't like me, just give me a little small peck on the cheek or a slap. You know, a little gift from you" he said timidly
"Aaron, that's the same thing I feel 2wards you. I'll take the kiss but a bigger one" and she kiss with Aaron on the lips
After their lips departed Aaron asked " Couples?"
"Why not?" Laura replied happily
And it was so romantic. Everyone agree them to be together. Everyone except one person doesn't

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"That Aaron, that dumb. Laura was mine - " Benges replied angrily
"I'm gonna squash you like this " he said as he squash his burger
His eyes were red with anger
"It's revenge Alien" he plan what to do.
No matter what he wanted to get Laura back!

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Laura and Aaron spend their first date together. They went to the funfair and the love tunnel. That was in the afternoon. When they're walking home, Benges attack Aaron from the back with a knife! Aaron died. Laura screamed loudly and Benges laughed happily. He was about to grab Laura and ran with her when Laura took the knife he was holding and cut herself in the throat
"I come to join you Aaron" she said before she died
Benges was caught and hang to dead
"So what Laura says was right, love shouldn't be force, its an unhappy ending for me and Laura"
Benges thought to him self before he died. He regret but its too late




O.o


haha.. finish de la .. that's all la ..

yes, i underlined those words in my book, double underline using red pen some more!

oh now i promote my recent piece :- For the girl who has everything

now i wanna go hide under a rock de .. so paiseh ..

*hides in rock*

*hang Malaysia flag*

Happy Independence Day!

The one that had been ..

i happen to have a good long term memory. really. stuff that are memorable and automatically registered in my head. i bet if my brain is a hard disk, it would be like a huge gigabyte

when i was 5, i was such a timid scared tiny tot who was terrified of the thunder and lightning. i was enrolled into a kindy which has a giraffe shaped slide. we were allowed outside playing in the playground when it started raining. we were shooed in and this other boy wouldn't come in. thunder roared and lightning flashed. i was so terrific and to make things worst, the boy slipped and his lips/chin bleed. the sight of the injury + the thunder was too terrifying for me, i threw up. i stopped kindy till the next year

when i was 6, a boy in kindy taught me how to eat cream filled biscuit. open it, eat the empty uncreamed piece , then peel the cream, roll it into a ball and eat it like some sweet.

when i was 9, my best friend and I were locked in the toilet when we changed into our PJ clothes during recess. i dunno why the door has no knob but it closed and a male teacher had to kick open the door. we spent the whole recess recalling our incident to everyone we met

when i was 10, there were some aedes campaign going on in my school. the thoughts of the aedes and people suffering etc etc made me tear up and went home without even looking at the exhibition

when i was 13, i walked into class right after toilet at the same time my geography teacher walked in. i was not feeling well and she harass me on why i didn't greet her. i rolled my eyes , not directly at her but she saw it.

when i was 14, i skipped art class and hung out at the sick bay room. i slipped in class unnoticed 5 mins before the class ended

when i was 15, i wrote a romantic steamy poem and 6 years later, i found out people thought i was sick at that time

when i was 17, i had my period on my bday and it sucked so bad. on the same day, i found out my pet bro was not a virgin anymore. i felt so sick i threw up 2 hours after i turn 17 officially

when i was in national service camp, on 13 feb, i had an antibiotic on an sorta empty tummy. hours later, really bad stomachache. luckily i recovered for valentine

the last guy i really adored, i met him on 10 june 2006, i was wearing purple.

i forgot when i confessed to him, but i was wearing black.

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i remembered when i first start writing, it was 17 august 1999. my first piece was a three page exercise book story about some shit. it seemed that i wrote sex stories although i have no idea what the hell it was back then.

when i was 13, i was actively writing stories of fantasies filled with boybands *ahem* Nsync way back then. the story was never complete.

i wrote love poems when i was 15 despite the fact that i never had a relationship before. i helped write poems for friends. i co wrote a love story with two other friends. it was never finished

i kept writing all the way up to the day i had to leave for national service. then i started a day by day diary. one day i would like to read back and recall what i did. did i went on the raft? was it raining that day? what did i do on valentines? who did i like back then ?

when i entered university, i had no more time to write. i spend too much time in front of the computer and less time on paper. i blame myself.

therefore i decide to pick up writing again. slowly. step by step.

that's why i am currently working on an idol fanfic *ahem* Jay Chou which is not centered around him.

looking back, i do realize my stories when i was younger was illogical and really stupid but that was my fantasy, that was my way of expressing myself.

note that i only write teenage or romance stories. despite the fact that i never have been in one of those lovey thingies.

the only thing that kept me going on with my current fanfic are my readers. u guys know who you are.

because writing the piece is one part of the pleasure but having responds and readers are the one who are pushing me to write.

although i might be slow in uploading it, once again, due to assignment and overdose computer usage, i will keep writing as long as i have you guys

for all i know, i'm not letting go off the pen anytime soon. my grammar may been broken and my tenses go haywire. i might not know big words but i really like to express myself this way.

should i upload my first piece of shit i wrote when i was 12? ;P

A cut to the heart

it has been two years .. since i known you

two years since we last talked

when you smile at me, i felt like my world opened up

when you held my hand, i felt so lucky

and when you hover on me , i secretly enjoy it

how we used to spend everyday together

how i used to cry for you

those were the days ..

those were the time

i closed one eye on your weakness and i basked in ur strength

how you give me that sleazy look from your eyes

how you talk to me so softly when we're together

i treasured the warmth of your body when ur near me

you didn't know i smile when i looked at you fast asleep

and you didn't know i smile when you sang me to sleep

i have moved on.. i have .. i really have ..

but why when i saw you walk across ..

i felt a jab in my heart

were you the same guy ?

do you remember me ?

do you hate me ?

those hands.. were the same one who ran the fingers across my hair ..

the same ones i held tight in mine ..

sadly, our paths and fate do not cross ..

so why do i feel the jab in my heart?

that's because you had held the same heart in ur hand before

goodbye you.. it's true what they say, first love is indeed hard to forget

如果要走　請妳記得我　如果難過　請妳忘了我

Served the country

I am not that patriotic kind of girl but i have done my part to participate in serving the country

first up


the year was 2003 and i was in form 4 when my school was one of the selected one to stand by the roadside and greet the Sultan when he passes by on his way to Chinese New Year open house held at the open field near Hilton hotel holding a bunga mangga thing ..

FYI , this is bunga manggar .

credits to : maininsabah.wordpress

funny/ embarrassing moment : was walking in heels during rehearsal at night and did not notice a drain hole not cover and zuup!
my right foot went in.
i had to let of my heels and let them pick it up for me .. haha

mean moment : during the early days when we gathered in the field, suddenly i felt a thud on my back and i turned to see a bitten pear on the grass.
i looked around for the culprit .. i mean, why the hell the person throw a pear on me for?
it was not an accident as the pear hit hard on my back. my classmates were pissed for me too and we suspected it was a rival school and my classies comforted me by saying they threw it on me cause i'm pretty fair and they're jealous. =P

memorable moment : after the Sultan drove by, we walked and followed behind his vehicle to go back to the big field and later that night, we were treated with Andy Lau's mini concert.
heck, i don't even know his songs but we were screaming that Andy was damn handsome..
eh he was le that night! i was not near the stage but quite near also le .. like 2 km from him and we were handsomely rewarded with breath taking firework as our roof .. it was so beautiful!
result : bonded with my fellow classies

total time consumed : if i'm not mistaken, half month of rehearsal .. (yes, by walking in line carrying bunga manggar) ..

second round

going for National Service was not an option for me .. it's either that or jail ..

i cannot imagine being jailed for not some 3 months military training, right?

it was end of 2005 till march 2006

i was sent all the way to Kelantan le .. all the way across the peninsular

sad moment : of course when it's time to part with family, i cried a bucket of tears .. i mean, i never been away from home le !
then the moment to come home from camp, i cried 3 buckets of tears le!

tragic moment : when my group raft .. haih .. went and cannot paddle .. haih .. and then people cry .. haih .. dun wanna say de .. black spot in my memory

amusing moment : when i see other girls so afraid of the cutie leeches .. i got bitten by one!! wee !

memorable moment: everyone i spend time with who has been there for me the entire time when i needed them.. my fellow trainees and trainers who are so patient with me

valentine moment : i distribute red color sweet to my friends .. :)

funny moment : the time when i had to do night duty with usharani and we 'flirt' and chat with the boys thru walkie talkie

touching moment : i hugged a guy at the end of my journey o.O

reality moment : when i stayed 3 days at my foster family home .. and ride my first motorbike ..

boys moment : the adorable guys in my camp who always make me laugh .. step shoe game, splash water moment

proud moment : in the beginning , during our opening ceremony under the hot sun, a lot of people fainted but at the closing ceremony, no one fainted! proves that national service indirectly had toughen us up !

results : friends like kel, zee, wan, iscz, yy and many more

total time consumed : 19 dec 2005 - 6 march 2006 .. my precious memories

third time around



ok, this was quite recent .. like last year

i joined a performance that just took my own breath away :)

for the country's 50th year of independence !

busy moment : when we're rehearsing of course .. every weekend no break one ok!

saturday :- 4 pm till 11 pm
sunday :- 8 am till 4 pm

hard moment : through light rain we rehears in colourful raincoats .. at first it was like " huh!! rain wor " *grumble grumble* but other performers were looking .. so damn proud to run rehearsal for them to see! syok syok rehearsing, the rain got worse and we kena stop -.-''


amusing moment : conversing and listening in cantonese .. i wonder how i survived ..

proud moment : when our hard training came out successfully and everything went beautifully! i overheard these other group performers telling her friend

"eh , dun go yet .. wait for the last performance .. it's the best"

*smiles proudly*

touching moment : how everyone treated us so nicely, i really feel the love until i could feel there's a huge difference when i stepped out of rehearsal ..

and how everyone worked hard together to put this piece of performance together

i have to thank sam for giving me a chance


for more : - plz visit merdeka project 50 (credits for the photos)

result :- friends like sampat , poh wei, janet, earn earn ..

total time consumed :- beginning of july 2007 until end of August .. performance on 31th August

waa .. i look back .. so gan tong at the moment .. *sobz*

eh, at least i performed in Stadium Merdeka .. so at least i can say i performed where Jay did .. even though i didn't go see him !

*hearts*

i'm rushing with assignments at the moment .. but yeah , just a pop in ..

to say i *heart* my babes ..

how wasila made my night =P

how touching it feels that they got a tad worried about me ..

and juls, thx for the sms =)


aiyo jen jie, too exaggerated liao ...

after all this assignment hoo haa .. i just wanna sit back and round up the jay crew babes

and just hang on MSN .. as i write my fanfic for them ;)

*hearts* *hearts*

where's my real life babes?

za! when you coming back?
azzy! wanna see you soon..
lily ! you live five mins from me le
nance! almost two years de since i saw you
mitch! gotta head back to kfc
hwuei li ! see you soon i hope

and yesterday was Syazwan's bday!

Happy birthday my dear !

bila nak datang sini ? dah 3 tahun sejak PKN !

wanna find place/time to lepak with xiao mei and ally mei also

all so busy peeps ..

oh kel mynn.. have to book dinner witchu and cam whore kao kao ..

there's other heart warming messages but that's from someone

and i'm keeping it for myself .. :)

Chinese New Year Day Three

It's like the 13th day of Chinese New Year and now only am I blogging about my new year .. but hold your horses.. I'm only talking about the third day after the first two days of family hoo haa reuniting ..

On the third day itself, my auntie took us all out for a tour to Penang .. like real tourist liddat le!

now this time, i did not take any photos myself .. because i passed the camera to my brother and let him have his way ..

p/s: bunch of photos coming up .. so plz be patient while loading ..

pss: i suck in labelling/copyrighting my photos and i got lazy halfway thru so it's disorderly ..

driving across the Penang bridge because the ferry itself is damn packed

plus driving across the bridge can enjoy beautiful view ..

approaching the middle of the bridge ... we took the picture from the back seat therefore the car dashboard can be seen

first stop.. we went to bukit bendera.. is that frasier hill? i dunno.. sorry my geography is pretty messed up .. but it was packed and full so we moved to another location ..

Kek Lok Si temple .. which has pretty pretty architecture ! i am amazed at how pretty the place is ..



lookie, the scenery of the hills just take my breath away ..! look so fresh ..

what?? climb all the way up there?? O.o

the toppest .. i feel so close to the sky .. the background really shows it's a good day ..

i love how they cut shape the tree into half .. look like bowl liddat ..

we bought a lot of souvenirs .. but let's save that for another day :) .. pretty pretty souvenir ..

after the long climb up and the climb down .. we head to the Botanical Garden ..

time for some nature walk !
this is called the cannon ball tree .. looks kinda like a Christmas tree or someone with messy hair

botanical garden is so healthy ! or so the board claims ...

a beautiful place to "do a Bollywood movie" quoted my cousin ..

seriously, you can just roll around there, running around, hiding behind trees .. etc etc ..

oh and look who we found !!

your boyfriend! =D

ok, the monkeys are super adorable and super daring .. my grandma pointed to one and it opened it's mouth gesturing a bite ..

here's a little game .. spot the monkeys! guess how many are there??

i never know monkeys camouflage until now .. ok, so my knowledge on monkeys are low too.. T.T

they even locked up the plants. . scared you take and run ..

house of orchid .. where all the orchids live .. also known as orchidarium .. hehe

oh look.. more monkeys ! see , they are super approachable .. and despite the sign NO FEEDING MONKEY .. people still do.. if the monkey food poisoning and got stomach ache how?

this one not monkeys ok! that's my cousin Katherine and me .. with the map of the botanical garden.. pretty old looking right?

i love the effect in this photo ! look so peaceful and almost romantic ..

and this picture of this weird hairy tree .. i love how peaceful and fresh it looks ..

i can almost picture the moment again ..

the setting sun ..


after a long hot day , don't you just crave cold cold stuff ..

drive drive around ..



this was in the middle of the road .. no wonder la the road jam .. people stopped their car, get down and take photos there or slow down to admire the beauty .. it's pretty unique

lion dancing kids .. ^^,


another destination ..
overlooking the beautfiul sea ..

we stopped by corn wallis .. but we just stopped there and walked a bit .. without going in .. pay to go in and see old cannons? no thx ..

eat it and you will keep screaming ..

the sun really setting de ..

the end of a beautiful day .. i think i lost some weight with the amount of sweating and walking etc etc but for dinner, i was so hungry i ate a big plate of wan tan mee .. T.T

whole day hardwork for nothing ..

the next day we head off to my second uncle's house ..

dunno how many gazillion times i passed this traffic light .. everywhere on penang also the traffic light seems to have number countdown .. i like ..

remember last year .. my cousin has a bitch named Angel that barks her head off whenever she sees her..


Angel .. who barks loudly ..

well, this time when i went to my second uncle's house .. they have a new dog ... i think she's a bitch too ..

TADAA!! .. bigger version of Angel ..

except she doesn't bark, she sniffs around you .. *sniff sniff*

looks like Angel .. just bigger and quieter ..

i miss the good old days ..

my brother has a couple of good shots .. hmm good good =]

anyways .. gotta go now .. moving on .. doing other things .. will blog more on what i brought home from Penang ..

goodbye Penang ... till next New Year ..